There are many theories as to how we
came to be
I’m not sure which one I believe.
Did we appear as dually flickering
lights above the hazy skyline—
fluttering,
distant,
choking on a stifling fog
First, solitary decades of life as a
lukewarm utterance
whispering, “Oh what is this emptiness?”
Hybrid gesturing suggesting half isn’t
missing, but whole.
But someday,
when beacons collide, not
coincidence but prophecy,
wrenching claims of meant to be
The sparks erupt,
in ultraviolet chaos—volcanic, raging,
a mighty wallop of color and sound,
a shattering cry of belonging
splitting time itself.
I don’t think so.
I don’t think I was born to love
anyone except myself,
but even that, some days, I’m not
sure is true.
I don’t think our initials are
carved into anything immortal.
Let alone battered into the very
cosmos
The air didn’t—lock into place upon out
arrival,
awaiting the moment our silhouettes
would one day fill the empty space
I could fall in love with a melody—
let it crawl to my body,
or train ride, or alabaster sheet; there
are chemicals that do these things to me
I could grow fond of many things,
but,
how particular my fondness of you
How fervent
How violent, how gentle.
I think we’re just moths,
riding on the backs of giants
And I wasn’t drawn to you because
our wings are both blue,
but, because they’re the same color
as everyone else’s
And you were willing to listen
to why that scared me.
We’re not star-crossed,
but we can still wrap ourselves in
the seams of a quilted universe that we didn’t stitch.
Bathe in the glow of the sun that doesn’t
shine for us.
Run atop an earth that doesn’t feel our
hurried foot steps
as they thump, thump, thump.
How lucky we are to have nothing
expected to us.
Quickly,
all the time we’ll ever know is tapping
her toes on the doorstep
And I don’t want to keep her
waiting.
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I found this poem hijacked my system all day long. I barely know Sav (and by the word 'know', I mean 'subscribe her on youtube'), yet this piece had left me feeling blue upon loving. Particular sadness is still tightening my throat I couldn't even sing along my favorite songs on my way home today. I wonder how could something be this beautiful and saddening at the same time.
Enjoying your craftsmanship in between the years. Outside it has snowed and it is wonderful to read the playfulness and depth of your lines which I am starting to admire.
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