Still, I found my fingers intertwined in the messiest knots I've never tied before Still I heard the sound of the rain growing heavier outside these walls Still I noticed that the artificial red flowers on the table was quite dusty in interesting way Or those colors of candies in the jar have weirdly got me smiling Or the pile of tissues I did not touch along the session And I didn't mean to get distracted on purpose, no. It's just, I felt the sudden urge to clean my nails with my nails and then regret the fact that I cut my nails short last night, so I couldn't really clean anything really, but, I managed to dig deeper It was before I saw her watching me across the table, waiting. Oh I wish I told her that I am originally a master mind; planning is as natural as breathing for me Because it took me months to swallow my pride to finally sit here in this room Took me tons of courage to show a stranger the pus on my wound Took me forever to believe there is